hooked?? i think soo....

*sigh*

... what can i say... im hooked. all i could think about today was edward cullen, vampires, jacob black, warewolves, the movie, the book. i ws online half the time 2day looking/searching for fansites, stuff aboutthe book or movie, and thinkin... why isnt everyones life like them?? it really suckks


i made wallpapers for my phone. wanna see some??

hahayou know yor jealous. and all these pictures have one thing in common. its my*signature* i guess. ahahaha

i bought a camera today... its not the best one but heyy... it takes picks, i bought most of it.*dad helped pay some* and it works.
good enough with me... even if i did want the one my cousin has. ohh well. cant always get what you always want.

seriously tho.. i love edward cullen... and his quotes.

im reading the 2nd book, new moon, right now. my friend who lent it to me decided to say it was depressing right b4 she gave it to me... now i want to know whats up with it. haha

i really do hope the director decides to do a sequel. i mean stop worrying about the cost. look at the 1st ones turn out. yah its going to cost more to make it more book based... but these crazii grls will pay watever too see it.. i mean they waited outside the night b4 for the premire!!!!!!

crazii fans. i love taylor lautner, but heyy im in love with edward cullen. i cant choose teams so dont make me choose.

alrite well ima go read da book now. ttyl .

♥ edward cullen && jacob black

And so... the LION fell in LOVE with the LAMB

twilight-highlight of my day

*Ohh look!!! its edward and bella!!*

haha so today i finally saw twilight. hahaha
i saw the trailor for the 1st time yesterday... and then the movie today... needless to say. im hooked. i didnt want to be... but im hooked. it really sux to say it but, i wouldnt mind having a bf like edward cullen. hed be the perfect boyfriend. he'll love me, protect me, and care for me.
*u love him... but i love him more*
but the movie itself was amazing. i love taylor lautner. haha id choose him anyday. but today... im going for vampire only cuase im in a edward cullen mood. hahaha. rob is so much hotter in this movie.

*HOTT!!*

*sigh* i want him as my bf.... haha yah im hooked. but heyy, im a 15 yr old grl. what do u expect. anywayz. UGHH I LOVE IT!!!!!
*This is a really good picture *

theres not much more to say about this movie other than its awesome, hott guys, pretty amazing grl, typical love story with a twist. and a buncha obsessed grls who cant get enough of it *im not at that stage yet* teehee ^_^

*i made this one myself!!! hah thanks to picnik.com teehee ^^ and a friend who told me this site*

lol this shows how much of a life i have on a friday nite at 10 30. haha

ANYWAYZ

lets see. i want to see pineapple =[ hahaha its sad.... i dont get it... ive never wanted to see a guy like this b4... WHAT DOES HE HAVE THAT i WANT!?!?!?!?! *hes obviously not taylor or rob!!!!*

anyone know?? this is just sad...

and heyy person whos reading this... *wink* dont laugh... i have no life.. this is considered short...i mean look at my other ones....

ive been at the mall since 8am till6 pm... yahh wonderful day yes??

btw, im gettin a camera tomorrow!!!!

EDWARD QUOTES!!!!!:*funny, sad, cute, watever... my faves*

I saved your life – I don’t owe you anything.

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.64

I hope you enjoy disappointment.

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.65

It would be more… prudent for you not to be my friend. But I’m tired of trying to stay away from you, Bella.

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84

I said it would be better if we weren’t friends, not that I didn’t want to be.

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.84

What if I’m not a superhero? What if I’m the bad guy?

Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.92

Bella:

Do you have a multiple personality disorder?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

thanks giving break begins

我的愛,

wow i always say im gunna write today and i never remember to... haha ohh well lets see whats goin on lately


but i cant say it here apparently.. cause idr who i told about this blog... so i guess this is between me and my brain

well 2day way the last day of skol b4 thanksgiving break!! woohoo! well i was a guide 2day at skol for ppl and it was pretty... boring? lol there wasnt much to do and my speaker disappeared and didnt come back. lol ohh well i chilled out in student services all day with my friend and athletic. haaha it was.... pretty fun.

during the last session we were suppose to watch a video they ppl made... it had a lotta seniors and memories of seniors and everything. hha it was fun.... pineapple was in it... he was akward. haha i'll be honest. some cute parts but mainly akward. watever. lol so we watched the whole thing and then i was walking around the auditiorium and all and i pineapple sees me and says carrie! and smiles... i pout and draw a tear down my face. he does it too.. only more dramatically. haaha

skol ended. yay. we went to the band room and im hugging ppl bye, wishing them a fun filled weekend. blah blah. and then he comes in and stares at me. smilin. i stare back. i knewwhat he was thinking and i knew he knew i knew. we kept staring at each other. ppl randomly came up to me and hugged me ... i was hugging cassie. saying bi. all that and he goes. carrie and i have a hug *arms out smilin* i was honestly thinking... should i be a jerk.... or not... and after like 4 seconds... i smile again... arms out. and hugged him.

i get hugs... a lot of hugs... from everyone. random ppl.... hahaha im a very huggable person. lol anywayz... and i guess its just me but i kinda think about the hugs i get. like i sorta but not really rate them... like id go aww this is a really comforting hug or hmm this is kinda a happy hug... or umm this is just akward. haha

my friend whos a bass guitarist.... he gives great hugs. no lie. like he was like #1 on my best hug list. his hugs are comforting, happy, and secure. firm too. but pineapple beats him.
No its not cause i like him. its really different. lol vibe is very different... i like it tho.
like the bass guitarist is a quick comfort hug... but His hugs last a lil longer... even if the hug itself wasnt. haha idkk
when we hugged. he was very firm about it and it was comforting and secure.. it did make me smile. i mean idk how to explain it... i just liked it... a lot. haha i want another hug like that.. not necessarily from him... from anyone... idk . lol im smiling now.

i dont usually get hugs from guys i like.
i got a hug from rocky once at coffee house freshman year. and that was b4 i liked him
me and bc have this special hand hug thing going on. lol its our own little thing
me and double O arent even close enough to hug. hahaah theres that dilema.. but not really.
me and pineapple... have a specail relationship...from my point of view... im sure hes like this to everyone... but noones really likethis to me.

hmm i needed to add something to the beginning... but i forgot it... go figure

stupid boys and the the banquet from yesterday!!!!

haha so i was going to come and blog yesterday.. but i got too tiired and went to bed. said i was going to do it tonite... but i really dont remember anything from yesterday. like not a word. all i remember is going to skol. yesterday nite... i remember i had something exiting to share but i cant remember anything!!! oh noo!!

well today.... was pretty blann... i guess... idk wat or how im feeling. and im thinking it has something to do with The Older One. or Double O. hahaha eitehr way... im falling hard for him. its like another rocky situation. altho i hope this crush doesnt last a yr like it did with rocky. but watever. Double O is a senior and hes gunna be gone next year.i just wish we can become good enough friends hed randomly IM me on Fb like he used too. i remember our debate on whether drinking milk was kool or not.

HAHAHA. watever i hope i get over him. i mean i will. yah i will. lol i just want to become friends.

Homecoming King .HK here is probalby the best bf anyone can ask for. no lie.he fits all the wat a grl wants.
hes shy yet loud* speaks his mind*
smart*even if he says no hes not *
funny
Caring
tall.

haha its a great guy... and im happy i became friends with him. no lie.but hes also leaving this yr..

im going to miss all these amazing seniors ive became friends with.most of my friends were jrs last year... and this year. theyre leaving me.

wat im i going to do without them!?!?!?!

OMG OMGOMG YESTERDAY! the banquet

i had so much fun it was the best time ever. great food.

amazing memories..

piccolo - nicole and sol was the best one i rememeber..
trumpets- How can stephen possible not get caught with food!
trombone- idk.. i cant think of any,,, idk y tho.. ohh dean is so quiet!
tuba- colin is so adorable. he got so emotional. and the family award he gave... mann i love the tubas
sax- AKWARD. JUST PLAIN AWKARD. and when chip and sean danced... omg that was wierd as crap. and cassie and i had the same thought.... Dancing tights.... at the same time!!! it was badd...
Drumline- ethan"most likely to quit drumline and join CG."mann we love you ethan
Runners. chelsea and catey... i love u guys
colorguard... mann i never thought id get the outstanding noobie award... it really just never came across my mind! and when they were explaining it... we all thought it was korey. wow i was happy but surprised.
i also got a funky ht award
"whats that, a hat, crazy funky junky hat..."

oh mann i had a fun time and i love everyone. till the end, no matter what happens... we are a family. no matter wat.

unfortunatly, Double O didnt talk. at all. to me
lol somethings wrong here... i just dk wat tho. Double O and his bro went from talking to me a lot to nothing.... *snap* just like that..
his bro and i have a class. but we havent talked for like 2 days now... i thought we were like bffs.

mann boys are dorks. but i love them. theyre my family too...
hahaa

well i g2g2 bed. got some all state work to do tomorrow. Blech!!

ttyl ...bbibi nite nite

Marching band competition

*sigh* i dont even know what to write today. i just want to say... RHS marching Band members, Great job today. we really really really did really good. it was amazing. seeing the band director jumping in all joy was amazing. and yah literally jumping up and down cheering was a great feeling. the ability to perform at the naval academy was an amazing feeling and i love it! i really did~ <3

RHS colorguard. especially opener flags.... what happened?!? the runs were amazing and we looked so good! but performance wasnt hott. but its watever now. its over. its to late. nothing i can do bout it but realize all our flaws and fix it for winter gaurd in next years marching band. Time to move on. we went up by O.2?O.4? O. something points... thats not good considering we had 3 weeks! our runthroughs were amazin! WHAT HAPPENED!

im really really sick and tiired of going out there working our butts off and getting a low score. then having marching band members telling us we suck, we bring the guard down, mocking us, and everything else that just makes us feel like we did Sh*t. when its story time, what do the drum majors and directors say. we are a band. and bands support and work together. we are like family. WHERES THE FAMILY?! THE SUPPORT?! when we get a bad placement. ohh... its colorguards fault.

i'll be honest. were not the best. were not that good in general. but whatever! we really do go out there and try our best and show our best performance. today *its 1:02 am... yesterday* was an amazing performance... minus a few flaws. opener flags were... really off. but we tried. i know we did. u can tell! some of us just dont have enough confidence to realize that they have the potential to lead the group. our flags may not be neon and WOW at 1st glance... but it fits with our show and all. murder/mystery was a great theme.

another thing, band members.... seriously. we know we suck. we know we arent as good as the other bands colorguard. we dont have "WOW LOOK! BRIGHT COLOR FLAGS!" were not as together as we should be. SO STOP SHOVING THIS INTO OUR FACES! FAMILY??!?!? whatever. like i said b4... we place bad... ohh its alllllll colorguard fault.. when was ur last time u stopped, thought bout what you said, how much its going to hurt us mentally, and NOT SAY IT. if u realize how much we work our butts off and having the result turn out like this... u'll realize we dont need u guys to come up to us and say boo u suck. Think. Think really hard. Think bout when the last time u said heyy colorguard, its okkayy u guys didnt do so hott. u tired ur best. great job.

ive been in marching band since day 1 and i have not had a single member do that. nothing i say rite now can express the way i feel about our band and CG.

i love it. i love marching band. i love colorguard. i love all the members. and i wouldnt switch with any other skols becuase we are like family. we just dont have the support we should get. when was the last time we thought bout the other persons position. i finally did today. and Cg member and a marching band member was play arguing bout how their job isnt easy... i started to think... its true

Band: the fact that u guys can play, memorize music, count, watch drum major, get to ur spots, and march at the same time is amazing. it really is. and im proud to say thats my band members

CG: the fact that we learned how to toss, catch, march while tossing and turning, dancing, count marches, and get to our spots is amazing. and im also proud to say im a part of it

we both have the same amount of stress and pressure... so y cant we get the same amount of support?!

tues, the bands going to watch the game and they are going to say... wow. colorguard sucks. no wonder we got 14th/15th place. yah thats band. justthe push we need to come back nexxt year.


i dont knowwhat else i want to say... i just can express myself.

Later today:
i was in a bad mood after our placement. yah drum majors and directors said it didnt matter. and i'll agree.. but lets be honet... who doesnt want a plastic trophy taller than themselves standing in the office/band room reminding us how amazing we were. i wanted that trophy... i'll be honest.... i always say placemnt? watever... but wanted top 10 at least.#1 if ever. I wanted to be #1. I wanted band to say great job. and i want to show them colorguard does have what it takes.

when i get home. i sit and talk with my friend in the car for hrs. then i g2 my other friends house... yah i get ignored... completely so i go into their house, into the basement and chill with her lil bro. i love him. hes like my lil bro. i dont think ive ever felt so un needed and unwatned and left out. they all come barging int ome and lil bro talking. doesnt bother to say hi to me coming here and walk out.

Im So Sick And Tiired Of Trying To Help People With Their Life Problems, Then Get Turned Round And Pushed Aside Like I Dont Matter. Im... Just...Sick... And...Tiired... Of... it.... sick and tiired.

Halloween!!!

heyy, 我的愛
haha okkayy so i managed to avoid the computer a lot since skol started. and i just realized that i havent made a blog since forever. so y not start with halloween!!!! haha soo im a day late but watever i had fun. anywayz...

halloween O8 was probably one of the best times ive had in years but thanks to my 2nd pd class and music director who made me so much happier. the guy i liked wasalso in this class but i was not even in the mood to go talk to him and hes my BFF too! i like him more as a BFF than anything so no worries there dude. haha altho K.M. thinks im obsessed with him... surreee talk to chealsea if u think that. she was talking bout his eyes that i never even realized was blue. hahaha. but after 2nd pd i was a bit happier. so tx 2nd pd and teacher!!!

the morning was really bad... i was so depressed i almost cried. hahaha sad sad day

went to the guys soccer game at 5 pm. RHS vs. Bel Air semi-finals. we won 4-0 tehe^^
had a good time there watching guys play soccer heading those balls. my friends said this once and its now officially a quote for me and soccer. so someone headed the ball then she said yah! lose those brain cells!!.

haha officially my new quote for soccer..

it was me, S.K. homecoming king D.T and Chealsea. btw, im definitely crushing on D.T. hahahah hes so shy but nice and funny. great personality too!! but hes a senior and leaving this year!!!
hahaha we had fun ttalking and all
btw... chealseas friend peter is pretty cute.

then we decided to go to chipotle cause it was free brrito day. if we dress up with aluminum we get a free burrito. hahaa it was a fun time. S.K. and her BF S.W. D.T. and me went to chipotle and talked and chilled. ima sound like a lil kid bout ima be honest. it was pretty fun to hang out with a buncha seniors.... ima miss them next year. then D.T. freaked out from this song ...retenor?? by radiohead. hahahaaaha

after that S.K. took me home and me and my crazii friends walked around the neighborhood and chilled and had thebest time... without trick or treating!!! slapping each other, being perverted* erick, D.F. B.H. that is*

me, J.V. K.M. L.F. her friend from atholton cynthia. B.H. D.F. annd S.P. were all just here hanging out.

around 10 or so we went to J.V.s house and played music and all... then she got tiired and went to bed... leaving me shiv. D.F. and B.H. at like 1030. but we all went home too. but b4 we left, we all hugged and all.... and D.F. bein perverted while we hugged jen. hahhahaaha thx D. and when we were in the living room he said his nipples hurt. so i said how bout ur other one... hesaidno and i twisted it and he screamed. hahahhaha then he did the same to me?!?!?!!!!!! but failed. hahahahahahha

well that was mainly my night. today i went to VA with me family since i have a 4 day weekend!!!!! yeahhhh!

thats all for now. i'm tiired of typing... this is a weird keyboard. hahaha i g2 get on this more often

c ya >.<